권지용 // Kwon Jiyong (thakwonleader) wrote in puzzle_rp,
권지용 // Kwon Jiyong
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[Closed ♪ Finished] But I Love U.

Who: 권지용 (thakwonleader)
Where: YG Family HQ.
When: Evening.
Why: Because he wants to finish a song.
Rating: PG.

[ooc: Note. Lyrics in italic are already written on the sheets and lyrics that are bolded are now written by Jiyong.]

How long has it been? There was no use in asking that question because he perfectly knew how long it had been since she had left him. 79 days ago.

No, the real question now was, why did he even count those days? He felt pathetic. But they had a good friendship and a such a nice relationship and all of that was gone like it had never been there. Being here in Japan definitely made things better for him without seeing her, without recalling their memories every time he saw a place that reminded him of her. A lot better.

Tapping the tip of his pen on the table, he glanced at the lyric sheets lying infront of him on his desk. They were half-done. The last time and the first time he started on them was about two months ago when he wanted to express his feelings on paper about the break-up.

This lonely morning I woke up without you
After you left, the compass of the map in my heart
Has lost its way, my life was all ruined
I was unprepared, yet you still ran far away from me.


The words were written in Korean, months ago, why was he still bothering himself to continue with it? He should be working on Japanese songs right now but without inspiration, without motivation for any other lyric, he wanted to finish this specific one.

My Venus, I've prayed to God to try to hate you
Because it was so unfair, because my life felt so miserable
My tone, actions, even my steps have gone away
My habits that have copied yours are bothering me.


Why couldn't he hate her? It would've made his life so much easier for him, just hate her for leaving him like that without a reasonable explanation.

You can't be forgotten, how can I forget you?
You're on the first page of all of my memories
Birthdays, the beach, over the cliff of deep love
You're the first girl who's given me the pain of a first broken heart.


Yes. She was his first girlfriend. He fell in love with her a long time ago but only got the nerve to admit it a year later and then, a beautiful relationship was born. That's how he thought of it at that time.

But but but but I love you girl, I wish you would stay here
But but but but I love you girl,
I wish you would hold onto me
But but but but I love you girl,
even if I don't say it
Please don't lose my eager heart ma' girl.


Written like he would never move on from her, that's what he could notice from the words on the lyric sheet that he'd written a while ago.

In my eyes you are just beautiful
My friends told me not too fall into it so deeply
First, when I got mad, that girl is different
She is nicer and more pure than anybody
(than anybody)
Uh lo-...no I really like you
Let's not change I'll make you happy.


The lyrics weren't really half-done. To any other person, they would seem finished but to Jiyong, they weren't. Not yet. Chewing a bit on his pen, he started thinking of words to fit in, words that described his feelings of this lyric. Almost all of his songs were love songs, but never were they about his break-up so it didn't take long before inspiration came flowing in and he scribbled the words down.

My fault. Memory. Smoke. Go Fly far away. New love. He definitely had to use these words.

Getting up, he picked up his lyric sheet and started pacing around the room, a small frown on his features while reading the words over and over again. Maybe he needed some coffee first.

A knock.

"Huh?" A confused look crossed his face, wondering who that could be since everyone knew he would be writing his lyrics. And they knew better than to disturb him. Placing the papers back on the table, he made his way towards the door and opened it.

It was a secretary.

"Kwon-san, I'm sorry to disturb you but I thought you would like some coffee after spending hours in that room." she explained, a smile spread onto her young face.

He returned it, gratefully taking the cup from the plate. "Thank you, it's like you read my mind." he emitted a soft laughter, remembering his thought before the knock on the door. "And there's no need for Kwon-san, just GD is fine."

"Ah, alright, GD. And you're welcome, good luck with your lyrics." she said with a bow before taking her leave, a small blush on her cheeks that went unnoticed by Jiyong.

"Thanks!" he called out before closing the door and taking a sip of his coffee. It wasn't too hot, just the way he liked this drink.

"Alright, back to the lyrics." he mumbled to himself and picked up the sheets, starting to read the words again, trying to make them fit together and form sentences with it.

A few minutes, an empty cup and a couple of striked lines further, he finally was satisfied.

The memories with you were so hard
Of course it may be my fault, I'll probably comfort myself like this
When time goes by, this memory will be like smoke too
Fly far away, a new love may find me too.


Yes. He liked that part. It had to be his favorite out of this song.

But but but but I love you girl,
I wish you would stay here
But but but but I love you girl,
I wish you would hold onto me
But but but but I love you girl,
even if I don't say it
I can't turn back your changed heart, I know girl...yeah.


Dot.

He sighed. It felt good to have finished the lyrics. At the end, he would always feel a rush of accomplishment and this time the feeling was probably better. He felt as if he was again a step further, only this time, the step was larger and maybe he could finally move on.

No.

He'd definitely move on.

[ooc: I was bored, so I thought I'd write a self-log. Fuuuun. :3]
Tags: character: kwon jiyong, rating: pg, status: closed, status: finished
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